The bass vibrates through my boots before I even get to the bar. That thick, low thrum that settles in your chest and makes your heartbeat feel like it belongs to someone else. Smells like stale beer, weed, too much perfume. And sweat. Hot, live, human sweat.

It’s the kind of venue that feels alive—grimy, electric, pulsing with half-drunken promises and last-minute regrets.

I run a hand through my hair—still damp from the helmet—and tell myself this was just a night out. Nothing heavy. The boys snagged a few tickets last minute, hyped about some TikTok breakout artist. I didn’t have the heart to tell them I used to kiss her between chorus takes and rub her shoulders when she stayed up mixing vocals till dawn.

Didn’t tell them her name’s still in my phone, even though the messages stopped a while ago.

We were together for three years. Three real-ass years.

Not the pretty kind, either. It was ramen noodles and gas station coffee. Me bartending double shifts and hitting the gym at 3 a.m., her stealing my hoodies and writing songs on the floor while Boss and Twinky snored beside her. We made it work when we shouldn’t have.

She was soft where I was hard, chaotic where I was steady, and talented as hell. The kind of voice that could haunt you. And when she blew up on TikTok a few months back? Something shifted. She started flying out, meeting producers, sleeping in different time zones. And I… I started realizing I didn’t wanna hold her back.

Or maybe I just couldn’t keep up anymore.

So I told her I needed a change. Something new. Something not this.

Did I expect it to actually end? Not really.

But it did.

And now I’m here, packed in shoulder-to-shoulder with strangers, watching a stage I used to help build. Not because I’m trying to torture myself, but because some twisted part of me had to see it—her—with my own damn eyes.

And damn.

There she is.

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Three years of late-night voice memos and shared silence, of back-of-the-bike laughter and joints on the roof at 2 a.m.—all leading to this moment. Her under white-hot lights, ethereal as ever, dressed in that silky black number that drapes off her like sin.

The crowd’s already screaming her name like it’s gospel. Like she’s the second coming of Lana or Billie or Mitski, and maybe she is. She always had that haunted softness, that velvet steel kind of voice that made people listen.

And now they all are.

Her silhouette hits me first. The curve of her shoulders, the slow, measured pace across the stage. Confident. Detached. Like none of this touches her anymore.

Then—fuck—she looks up.

And sees me.

Half a second. One heartbeat. That’s all.

But it’s enough to rip the breath outta my lungs.

Her eyes lock on mine—moonlight in winter. Sharp, aching. There’s something there. Or maybe I’m just desperate enough to believe it.

Then she looks away.

Just like that.

Turns back to the mic, cool as hell, voice low and smooth like bourbon poured over frost.

“Hey, LA. Miss me?”

The place erupts.

Hands shoot up, bodies sway, voices scream. And she soaks it in like she was born for this moment. Maybe she was. Me?

I’m frozen. Jaw tight. Heart pounding like it’s trying to escape my ribs.

I smell her perfume—jasmine and smoke. Same as always. It hits me like a punch. I thought I was past all this. I thought I was done needing her like oxygen.

I thought I came here for the music.

But maybe… maybe I came to see if she’d look at me like she used to.

Like I was hers.

And now?

Now I’m not sure if I ever really stopped being.