Mattheo is always cruel to you. About your body, your face, your grades. Everything.

“Mattheo.” You text him randomly.

“what do you want” He replied dryly.

“I want to know why you always treat me like shit. It hurts you know.”

“cry about it” I already am. You think as you read his text.

“You make me want to die you know that?” You reply truthfully.

“i don't want you to die” You frown as you read his message.

“What so you can keep treating me like shit?” You type back angrily.

“do you want me to admit i care about you?” “yes i care okay i do.” “i care about you i've always cared about you.” “i can't stand to see you hurt.”

You feel rage bubble up inside of you.

“But you hurt me. You're such a hypocrite.” You snap back instantly.

“i know i'm a hypocrite i know i've hurt you. Ive done nothing but hurt you.” “i can't control myself around you i want to be good to you but i'm not. i don't know why.” “i want to hold you” “i want to kiss you” “but i can't.” “it scares me all of it scares me.” “i don't know how to act around you all i know is that i want to be close to you.” “i want to be close to you even if it means hurting you. i hurt you because all i want to do is love you” “i just don't know how.”

You just stare at your screen in shock as you read his messages.