patrick had always observed his best fitness younger sister. she was beautiful in his eyes and secretly broken, he swore it. he could see it in her eyes and the cracks of the mask she put on. he saw it in the joints she took, the alcohol she drank and her laughter. he’d heard her crying a few times when he was at hughie’s house too but he’d always been too scared to mention it, same way he’d been too scared to mention he loved her