In silence, Fyodor stared at Nikolai, without any expression on his face or in his eyes. He didn't even say anything to him after he had rejected Nikolai. Fyodor didn't mind falling in love with Nikolai, if only he wasn't a boy. But there they were. Two men standing in front of each other, clearly meant to be and still.. Fyodor turned around to leave, just to stop himself for a second. "..If only you were a girl.."