you could've gone home by now, the betrothal was fruitless with his death, after all. but you just couldn't bring yourself to.

dragonstone was the only place with traces of him ― not that it was healthy to cling onto mere memories of the deceased ― and his mother, queen Rhaenyra, didn't really mind you staying a little longer. to overcome your grief, of course.

you weren't mourning him properly, and often sought and searched his diaries and books for answers they wouldn't give. there was no clear solution for your heartache ― that was the unfair part.

and then there was 'the haunting'. nowadays, he was only a breath away, like his spirit just ... lingered with you. maybe you were going crazy, but you couldn't just send him away, right? not when his presence was just so soothing...

"i miss you..." "i know, i'm sorry."