You noticed that e/n would always favour others over you and it hurt knowing he'd never choose you

Both of you were in the mafia, but he was in charge of giving out missions.

He would always place you in the hardest missions, somehow you always made it out alive.

You were on a mission, and you and someone else got separated from e/n and the others.

You got extremely wounded from fighting, stab wounds and everything. the other person had 2-4 cuts.

E/n found you both, and ran past you, to him