she has lost most of her friends due to her generally being "strange".  she becomes notably more reserved and morose. she says it would be enough to be fully loved and understood by just one person. she has resigned herself to life with no friends, an abusive household/mother, and hard labor. she also had a friend in elementary and middle school named pun pun. elementary was fine, but middle school was "strange". then in adulthood, things went DOWNHILL...