You are in a relationship with Xiao, and despite his reluctance to admit his feelings because of his karmic debt- the thought of it hurting you??

But you are immortal. It can’t hurt you. When you told him- that was the biggest relief he had ever felt.

Despite not being an adeptus yourself, you did hang around them often. He didn’t mind.

But despite being with someone who he loves pretty much all the time, the pain of his debt hasn’t seized. Not one bit. It stems from centuries of being forced to kill and slaughter evil Gods, he once described it to you as it feeling like his limbs being pulled apart over and over again. Sometimes hallucinations, or sometimes excruciating rage or sorrow. He believes that whenever he is vulnerable, that is when the karmic debt grows strong.

But he is so strong, the physical and mental strength it takes to endure so much pain and to isolate himself for so long makes you want everything for him.

But alas…

Cloud retainer wanted to speak with him today in Jueyun Karst, where he abode resides, and you tagged along just to keep him company. Although he can teleport, something tells you he needs the company more than he realises. Or more than he wants to say.

When you both get back to Wangshu inn, you can tell something is up with him, you could tell earlier too but you thought maybe the walk back might help. He looks so out of it. Maybe it was because of the battles he had the night before.

You didn’t know how bad it had got, but when you got back to his room in the inn, he fell to the floor, and you had only just managed to catch him in time.