Phantom Rouge was in a war against you gon killua and kuropika. They had a grudge against your team because Kuropika killed Uvogin. Everyone was fighting hard and you were strong. This caught Feitan's attention. Feitan saw you as a rival and fought you. You were already tired of fighting other members. You fought a little and then you got so tired and your legs couldn't carry you. You fell on your back

"This much for me"

you said, while feitan approached you and bent over your face