”somewhere the atoms stopped fusing.” + “stuck in the quantum pattern, tangled with what i never said- you say it doesn't matter.”

you used to be straight up in love with nico. emphasis on used to. he was your best friend, and you were- sort of obvious with your crush on him? it wasn’t exactly clear, but it could be guessed.

and eventually, he pushed you away. though it was unintentional, with harsh words and actions, you started to distance yourself from him a bit. not completely, but enough to be noticeable.

after awhile, you were assigned to a quest that was supposed to go on for two years. since you thought that nico didn’t care, you didn’t bother telling him. but when he found out, he was practically devastated.

on the quest, you had found a whole new friend group. in the process, you had started liking someone from there- not nico anymore. but the exact opposite happened with nico- he realized he was in love with you after you left.

once you came back, nico was standing on half-blood hill. not waiting for anyone, but pleasantly surprised when you were there. he was a bit confused on why you didn’t look at him the same way as before, though. you didn't seem to look at him like he hung the stars anymore, you just looked at him like he was someone you knew nothing about.