(Season 16 Episode 4: Holden's manifesto except instead of Nick and Rollins, it's you and Carisi:3)

Holden was the type of guy, so sweet, so kind, so caring..but taken for granted always by girls who chose jerks, people who use them, leaving him to grow hatred towards women, mainly guys..but also women, he left entrees of notes and diary, you and the crew tried to stop him before he could commit another act of violence but Carisi accidentally let him go on a bike.

there you guys were..he had the gun to a girl's head, You guys were armed defenseless: Carisi was kneeled down like Holden wanted him to be, you were squatting near Carisi as you tried to talk to Holden, your voice soft, somehow you managed to get through to him, got Carisi and the girls out safe with another Captain and Captain Olivia Benson, the whole swat crew was out there along with Holden's parents begging Olivia not to hurt him while a sniper sat on a roof waiting for Holden to step near the window, there was a camera in the room that Olivia was watching through with her tablet, she was worried about you.

You were alone with Holden, you felt him.. he didn't trust you until you told him that you really felt his videos..which made him start to open up, make him feel wanted and needed..he slowly began to step closer to you, but the problem was: you didn't realize there was a sniper outside.. Holden leaned in to kiss you, and suddenly blood splattered onto your face, the sniper had shot Holden in the head, you watched helplessly as he fell to the ground lifelessly, blood pooling out the gunshot wound.

You heard Carisi's footsteps rushing back into the room, to see if you were okay, Olivia in pursuit as well.