౨ৎ now playing: first love/late spring by mitski

(aphrodite kid user)

you loved your boyfriend connor stoll. truly, from the bottom of your heart. you just couldn’t handle your mind splitting in two the second your sister tried to peer pressure you.

drew, your best friend and sister, knew that you loved connor. however, she had told you that you had to break his heart eventually: that it was what your mom would have wanted.

you didn’t want to listen, but fuck— she was really getting to your head. that’s what you hated most about her.

the second you saw connor again, you didn’t want to break up with him— you didn’t want to do anything to hurt him.

still, drew’s words lingered in your mind endlessly: you had to break up with him, today.

as soon as you had told him, his expressions were a mix of hurt and confusion. you’ve never seen him this hurt, the last time was when his brother left camp.

“what? baby, what do you mean?” connor said in utter disbelief, almost mad at himself for whatever he must’ve done to make you feel this way.