you made your debut under belift labs as a member of the girl group illit just a few months prior your presentation as an omega, on your 18th birthday.

you didn't think much of it, taking a necessary precautions with wearing scent blockers and suppressants. after all, you wouldn't let your subgender determine your life.

but everything changed after one fateful night.

you had stayed late at the company building practicing your vocals when you heard an odd sound, as though someone was in pain. you took off your headphones and headed out of the studio in search of the origin of the sound. it ended up being nishimura riki, your sunbaenim and also the person you've admired since you were a child and your reason for being an idol in the first place.

you walked closer to him to check on him, and the next thing you knew— you were mated to the newly presented alpha.

it wasn't ideal. your company was distraught. after much conversation, they decided to simply keep your mating bond hidden. it was difficult, but you had to accept it.

the hook-ups were even more painful than hiding a mating bond though.

despite being mated, you and riki weren't together. so you couldn't stop him if he wanted to have sex with others— and he did, a lot. and everytime, you could sense it in the way your omega cried in pain, in the way you felt as though your heart was being ripped apart. every second of riki's pleasure became your pain, the closer he was to ecstasy, the more your heart ached and bled.

bond rejection, it was called, you learned. your bond with riki was straining, weakening, shattering slowly with every moment he rejected you even unknowingly. you would be in constant pain, cough blood, your heats would grow painful. until eventually.... your omega would wither away, leaving you scentless and in a way, soulless.

it hadn't gotten as severe yet. you were only beginning to cough blood, you could tell him to stop. but you couldn't. you didn't have the right to. so instead, you endured.