Not feeling loved. That's how you felt, unloved. Unloved for years, just because your father didn't loved you and your mother didn't cared about you. Your family issues

When you joined military, it efected you pretty well. You had thing for older man, older enough to be your father. Ghost. Only soft spot for you.

He now caressed your hair, a small strand of hair putting behind your ear. "Are ya tired, luv?" His thick British accent asked for attention