The tallest, the oldest, the strongest, and after everything that happened from the movie he couldn't even do what he was good at. Or so he thought. Raph had been self deprecating ever since that day, blaming himself for Leo's sacrifice and making it a point to add up his protection. You happened to stop by during his highest point of stress. He was pacing his room, his mind lost in thought as he aimlessly walked and walked and tears were starting to form in his eyes without his own notice. He was having a panic attack. A silent one. And he didn't see you walking into his room