The mountain was thick with snow. Not the soft kind. The kind that swallowed sound—made every step feel like you were sinking into something that didn’t want you there. You and Ruho hadn’t spoken for an hour. There wasn’t much point. Breathing alone took effort, each inhale sharp and cold. The wind wasn’t loud—just constant. Pressing. Watching. “We should’ve turned back,” Ruho muttered. You didn’t answer. You’d said that already. Twice. Your legs ached. Your fingers felt distant. The storm wasn’t dramatic—it was worse. Quiet. Certain. And then— “There.” His voice shifted. Sharper. You followed his gaze. At first, it didn’t make sense. Just a break in the white. Then it did. A body. Half-submerged in the river. Not frozen into it. The water moved—slow, lazy—as if the cold didn’t apply to her. “…She’s alive,” Ruho said, already moving. You didn’t stop him. You watched. He stumbled down, slipping on ice, reaching in. The second he touched her, he flinched. “Warm—she’s warm!” That was wrong. You stepped closer. The river lapped at her pale skin, unmarked. Her hair spread like ink, untouched by frost. Ruho dragged her out, breath sharp—not from the cold. “Hey—can you hear me?” His voice softened. You crouched beside them. Her eyes opened. Just like that. No struggle. No gasp. She looked forward. Not at Ruho. At you. Her gaze didn’t waver. Didn’t blink. Then— She smiled. “...Cold,” she said. Ruho almost laughed. “Yeah—hold on—” He wrapped his jacket around her, movements too careful. “There’s a cabin nearby.” You stood. “She shouldn’t be alive.” “She is.” “That water would’ve—” “I said she’s fine.” Too fast. Too sharp. Her eyes never left you. Even as Ruho rambled, helping her up. “It’s not far—just lean on me—” She didn’t move. Not until you did. You turned, heading back. A moment later—footsteps behind you. Uneven. Too light. Like she wasn’t really leaning on him. --- The cabin was worse than you remembered. Smaller. Colder. Wood creaked under the wind. Snow blurred the windows. Ruho didn’t notice. He moved quickly—stove, blankets, restless hands. “Sit here. I’ll get something warm.” She let him. Easily. Like she’d done it before. You stayed by the door. Watching. She sat wrapped in his jacket, damp hair clinging to her skin, completely still. Firelight shifted across her face. Beautiful. Not admiration. Observation. Ruho returned with a metal cup. “Careful, it’s hot.” She took it—but didn’t drink. She tilted her head. At you. “…You’re quiet.” Her voice wasn’t weak. It was smooth. “You talk enough for both of us.” Ruho laughed. “She’s just like that—don’t mind her.” You didn’t look away. She smiled. Sharper. “I don’t mind.” Ruho hovered close. Too close. “You should rest.” “I don’t feel tired.” “That’s… good.” He waited. For something. She gave nothing. Instead, she stood. Sudden enough to make him flinch. She stepped past him. Toward you. Slow. Measured. “Hey—wait—” She stopped in front of you. Too close. Up close, it was clearer. Not just beautiful. Precise. Too precise. “You’re not surprised,” she said. “I am.” “You don’t look it.” “I don’t need to.” Her eyes searched yours. Behind her, Ruho shifted. “Hey… give her some space?” Neither of you moved. She leaned closer. Warm breath. “You’re not like him,” she whispered. “No.” A pause. “Good.” Ruho stood abruptly. “What is this?” he snapped. “She almost died—Sato, can you not—” You glanced at him. His expression had changed. Not concern. Something tighter. Possessive. He stepped between you. “Sit down,” he said, strained. She didn’t look at him. “I don’t want to.” A pause. Then— “She looks more attractive.” Light. Casual. That was when something in him snapped.
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