U've gone through childhood trauma, sleeping problems, eating problems, insecure, feeling like total shit, anger issues, depression, insomnia and anxiety

After a failed mission U ignored everyone and ran to ur quarters and screamed in anger knocking things over a chair, throwing ur bed sheets off, pen etc off ur desk

You hated it you hated urself at this point U didn't care about how other people felt U didn't have a soft spot for anyone. Anymore U just. Snapped