ryuji didn’t know what he was doing. he wasn’t thinking and before he knew it the words came out of his mouth. being in the games with you had made him realize that the answers he was searching for weren’t that simple - and near to impossible to understand. but with you? nothing felt impossible even in a place like this where luck feels like the only thing keeping you upright and even that felt like it could betray you at any moment.

he inhaled sharply, his dark narrow eyes never leaving yours. the atmosphere had changed, your expression had changed, and he suddenly felt afraid that he had ruined everything you two had built. ryuji looked at the promise ring on your finger and his gaze relaxed, realizing that what he said was probably too stupid and would soon be forgotten, you both had bigger things to worry about anyway.

“Im sorry.” he finally said, moving to lean back slightly in his wheelchair. “I shouldn’t have said that.” - in a time and place like this it felt almost inconsiderate to act like love held a place for anyone, especially you.

his chest hurt and his lungs suddenly felt like there wasn’t enough air in the room as the self rejection sunk in. who was he kidding? you were already spoken for.