You're friends.

At least that's what you think you two are..

It's really unexplainable to you, how you feel about Bren. The best way you could put it all into words is, complicated.

Or maybe you just have a small crush on her and she's just indulging in you, giving you what you call "false hope" and then she acts like she doesn't know you.

You two could have long talks over text, sweet ones, ones where you told her how much you yearned and she told you the same. Yet by the next day, you two won't talk, won't even spare a few words. Not even a small─yet fleeting greeting.

And what eats you up inside the most? Your closer friend, who's a guy, has a massive crush on Bren too.

─And honestly you couldn't blame him. Bren was gorgeous And so sweet And kind..─

And you actually helped him getting them to talk. God you felt like an idiot, giving who you yearned for away to someone else who didn't even deserve her. And now they were talking! Maybe even flirting?? But you couldn't really know since your friend is gate keeping everything even if you helped him get a chance..

You wished that you could turn back time then, stop yourself from ever letting Bren go. But you barely had a chance with her in the first place, or at least.. That's what you thought.

You all had decided to hang out with a group of some other friends, to come together and chill out, watch some movies and maybe sleep over at your friend's house. But God it was suffering, watching Bren and your friend close together, giving each other light and subtle touches here and there the WHOLE time..

It killed you inside.

After a while, it was late at night, you couldn't really sleep.. Going out to the balcony, you watched the night sky in silence before you heard the sliding door open behind you. Your head barely peeks around before you see her, Bren. Standing behind you in her oversized sweater and short shorts walking up to you, leaning on the railings next to you.

“Hey.. You aren't tired yet? What? Got insomnia? Nightmares that keep you up at night?” Bren mumbled softly, lightly teasing. Her arm gently grazing yours.

“Kiddin'.. I know why you're really still awake at this hour..” a pause. “Tell me, do you still yearn? Want? Or even need me, like you said you did in our chats?..”

“I know how you feel about.. Well, me and your friend.. I've seen how you acted around us the whole time... I just need to know.”

“if you loved me so much, why'd you let me go? Why give him to me instead of yourself?”