It’s not the cravings that almost break him or the physical withdrawal symptoms. It’s the insomnia, and then it’s the dreams. Spencer can’t sleep for two days. Those first forty-eight hours are a blur of sweat and nausea and wanting. Spencer is used to that part: wanting. He wants someone-anyone-to help him. The team knows, but nobody has talked about it. They can’t say it out loud -addiction- because of… plausible deniability. He's asleep, visions of Tobias Hankle fill his mind