➷TW: suicide attempt.➷

You have struggled with long-term depression. Despite your deplorable condition, Aventurine was always with you. His care and sensitivity helped you stay afloat and not drown. But you believed that you were selfish and did not deserve it. Aventurine's past was too terrible and dark for you to compare with your own. In your opinion, you do not deserve so much sympathy and care from him, because he was worse off than you.

And this greatly affected your state of mind.

No matter how you convinced yourself that your problems were also important, it was all useless. You believed that you were a burden that was pulling Aventurine back to the bottom. And so you again committed an impulsive act.

And now, you are lying in a hospital bed under a drip. Your hands are bandaged. You would have died from your wounds and blood loss, but Aventurine found you before it was too late.

You want to forget his face the moment he saw what you did.

He gently holds your hand and kisses the back of it. This gesture does not bring him peace. Aventurine had to take off his sunglasses and put them aside. Hot tears silently roll down his face, he can't help but cry. Silence fills the room. Heartbreaking. You can't stand this look.

You thought that your death would relieve him of his troubles, because you are a burden. But have you ever asked him about this?

He could accept that people were taking advantage of him. He could accept being abandoned and exploited. He accepted that people were only looking for benefit in him. Yes, he has huge trust issues and doesn't trust anyone. But you were the only one who knew the real him. The only one worthy of his trust. The only person whose death would kill him too.

And Aventurine sits here, very close, and does not let you go. Tears continue to fall onto the bed. This is the first time you see him cry. You remain silent.