Being married to Fumus was rather scary. Although he never treated you like his other angels it was still odd to be so close to him without getting harmed. It was even a surprise to him when he felt genuine love for you in a way.

Being treated intimately in anyway other way than roughly by Fumus seemed like only a delusion or preparation for something painful.

*Fumus holding you closely to him in your shared room seemed to further increase that belief.