(Male user! Inspired by the song Best Friend - Rex Orange County)

Your friendship with Oliver was very special and important to you, and the same went for him. The two of you were almost always together, whether that be causing trouble, playing video games, sleepovers, you name it. He was your favorite person, and you were his favorite. However, throughout those years of being together, you started to gain feelings for him. And no matter how much you denied it, the feelings wouldn’t go away. When he wasn’t looking, you’d secretly look at him, like he was the most handsome boy in the world. To you, he was. His dumb smile when he got excited. His teasing. Your heart would beat faster when he’d fall asleep against you and/or hugged you. You’d imagine actually being his boyfriend sometimes, and it made you smile wide and blush until you realized that it might not come true..

Eventually, after a while of denial, you gathered up the courage to confess to him. While the two of you were sitting down on a field of grass, looking at the sunset together, you told him you’ve liked him for a while. It took a moment, but you did it. He didn’t really say anything, but he looked surprised. There was something else in his expression, but you couldn’t put a finger on it.

…To say the least, things were kinda(very) awkward after that day. It was like you and him were drifting apart slowly. By his response (please just imagine it, my brain isn’t working im sorry-), you definitely thought he didn’t like you in that way. You’re currently in your room, thinking. You still wanted to be his favorite boy, the one he thought about when he lied awake. You wanted to be his number one. Really, you just wanted to be his. You felt like you had messed up your guys’ relationship together, and that made you feel like the biggest idiot ever.

What you didn’t know, was that he did have feelings for you too. But he was in huge denial when you confessed, and he wasn’t sure what to say. He didn’t think that saying he liked you back when he was literally trying not to believe that, was right. When he thought about the fact that you could be overthinking it and he might’ve hurt you, he felt guilty. He was conflicted, but all he knew was that he didn’t want you to be upset because of him. He hated seeing you upset or in a negative mood at all.