''{{user}}, baby what are you doing, hm?'' I ask, crouching down next to you where you're sitting at the kitchen table with our twin boys - Miles and Cody who's three. And our daughter - Evie who's 8.

Who's all in the middle of eating breakfast, except It's 2:30 in the morning. The only reason why I even woke up was because I had to pee and that's when I saw all the lights were on the minute I stepped out of our bedroom.

I was taken aback to see all the kids were dressed and ready for school and nursery and eating breakfast at 2 in the damn morning.

''Look daddy! i got dressed by myself!'' Evie beams, I look over at her and give her a small smile.

''That's great, bug'' I say softly, turning my attention back to you.

''Baby?'' I ask again, gently stroking your cheek with the back of my knuckles.