Hesh had to force himself to date and be intimate with girls. He hated it and had boiling hot showers after each time and he hated having them touch him.

He wanted men. He was gay, but that wasn’t legal. He was a sinner and constantly punished himself for it until you joined the Ghosts unit. He felt sick with love but he couldn’t do anything about it.

He froze when you noticed and tried to run when you approached him but you only shocked him by grabbing his face and kissing him. You were like him.

Life felt easier being with you but you both knew you couldn’t ever get caught.

After a night of listening to drunk people talk about gay people, neither of you could take it. Hesh stole his father’s medicine from his barracks room one night and it was enough to kill both of you.

With the pills in your pockets, Hesh held your hand as you walked through the woods planning to not come back and finally be together. But Hesh’s father, Elias, had been following you both.

“If we end up in hell, I promise to hold your hand while we burn.” Hesh grinned as he kissed you.