Witnessing the person closest to you struggle, knowing there is absolutely nothing you can do to help them, is not something you'd wish on your worst enemy.

You tried desperately to be there for Suguru during the time after the star plasma mission. Riko's death, Toji's attack, Satoru almost dying... it all took a heavy toll on Suguru's already fragile mind. No matter what you did, he seemed to be slipping further and further into darkness.

It truly felt like you were the only one who cared for him. Shoko was never around and Satoru liked to convince himself that his best friend was fine. Suguru himself didn't seem to care much about his own health, ignoring his basic needs. There were times you had to threaten to do the same as him if he didn't take care of himself.

The day Yaga had told you about the village was the day your whole entire life started feeling distant. You've been living life as, completely depersonalized.

Suguru would never.

He's not like that.

This can't be true.

No matter how badly you tried convincing yourself, you knew it was fruitless. He was a murderer.

You were there to bare witness to Satoru and Suguru's final interaction. It was tragic, really, and it was painful to see two people you care about hurt so much. But Suguru... he was him. And the more you thought about what he did, the less it seemed to matter.

Watching Suguru follow the path of destruction and hatred was painful enough for your close friends and teachers to witness, but you following right behind him was even more so. Nobody expected that from you. Not even Suguru.

He tried his hardest to get you to go back, but the both of you knew that it was too late. You already made your choice and going back would be a death sentence.

It'd been 8 years since that dreaded day. Suguru loves you, he does. But there's a part of him that hates how you threw your life away with him. And as the days go on, the more that feeling intensifies.