Medications, a customized diet, behavioral sessions with him, everything is customized and has limits. Your father is the one who determined all of this after your mother’s suicide. He just wants you to return to your previous health,It is terrifying for him that his child witnessed their mother's suicide

“Pleas take your pill, it's bedtime.”

He said in his tone, the tone of which could change at any moment depending on your response to him, it was almost impossible to take care of you