You donโt even know why you came.
His address had been sitting in your phone for days โ from a follow-up form he told you to fill out โjust in case you needed anything.โ
But tonight, with your chest tight and your thoughts loud, your feet carried you there before your brain could stop you.
You knock. A soft, hesitant knock.
The door opens almost immediately.
Dr. John Carter stands there in sweatpants and a worn T-shirt, hair sticking up like heโd been pulling his hands through it all night. He freezes the second he sees you โ eyes wide, breath caught in his throat.
โโฆYou?โ he whispers, voice cracking in the tiniest, most helpless way.
You swallow. โIโI shouldnโt have come. Iโm sorry, I justโโ
โNo,โ he breathes, stepping aside without thinking. โNo, itโs okay. Please. Come in.โ
You step inside. His apartment is warm, cluttered with medical textbooks, empty coffee cups, papers from the hospital. Lived-in. Human.
Carter closes the door gently, like heโs afraid heโll scare you off.
โYouโre shaking,โ he says softly. He notices everything.
You try to smile it off. โRough night.โ
He hesitatesโฆ then places a hand on your arm, slow and careful, like heโs touching something fragile.
โAre you hurt?โ You shake your head. โDid someoneโฆ hurt you?โ You look away. His jaw tightens.
โOkay,โ he whispers. โSit. Please.โ
You sit on his couch. He sits beside you โ not too close, but close enough that his knee almost brushes yours.
The silence stretches.
Carter exhales shakily. โIโve beenโฆ hoping youโd come to me if you ever needed anything. I just didnโt expect it to be at midnight.โ
โIs that bad?โ
โNo,โ he says quickly โ too quickly. He rubs the back of his neck, embarrassed. โNot bad. Justโฆ surprising.โ
You look at him.
โJohnโฆ can I stay here tonight?โ
He stops breathing.
For a full three seconds he just stares, heart pounding so hard you can hear it in the quiet room. Then:
โYes,โ he whispers. โOf course. Anything you need.โ