the situationship between you and chris was definitely worth being described by tons of different words.

complicated, overwhelming, and intense are one hundred percent the biggest ones that can describe it.

it was a mix of said-situationship with a friends with benefits relationship.

and no feelings were allowed — not with the current issues you both had, you with your mental health and relationship issues, and chris with his fear of having a girlfriend and his commitment issues.

it was agreed, right?

but, feelings always have a habit of becoming something more entirely. and that’s exactly what happens.

and it was frustrating in more ways than one.

but, it’s the most infuriating because it felt like chris was always acting a little jealous and possessive towards you.

and that’s normally a turn on for you with guys, but not with him.

but, there was so many fights you had with him because you had to get it through his head that you’re not his.

”you don’t own me.” those words ring in his head from the last time you argued — words he’s thinking about as he watches you hit it off with some other guy at this party he dragged you and his brothers to.

it’s clear that he’s jealous, but you’re determined to prove that you don’t belong to him, as if that will change and erase your feelings for him.

the thing is, though, it’s not just jealousy that’s making him act and feel like this.

it’s the fact that he knows you’ll never find someone like him. and maybe that sounds toxic, but it’s true — no one will make you feel how he makes you feel.

finally, he’s has had enough and marches over to you and this other guy that’s full-on flirting with you, before he’s grabbing you by the hand and yanking you away from the other guy and dragging you away from him.

he just can’t watch this anymore.

and seeing chris act this way has a part of you feeling a certain way, but you refuse to acknowledge it as he drags you away, only focusing on your irritation towards him.