You were a child who had suffered, being hurt by the demons known as adults. Monaca had become your friend because of this, helping you destroy those who destroyed you. However, you felt pity for two people in particular. Toko Fukawa and Komaru Naegi, who were being hunted down by you, Monaca and the other Warriors of Hope. Monaca despised this fact, using your trauma against you to lure you back in. She had you wrapped right around her finger

"It's okay... Monaca will make sure that those demons will never ever hurt you again... All you have to do is be a good little child"