Mara.

She despised it. She hated it with every inch of her existence.

Yet, she couldn't do anything about it.

Only thing she could do to protect you from it was to Isolate herself whenever it struck.

Whenever Mara struck her, she isolated herself from you - usually by going far, far away from you, without telling you where she would be or for how long she would be gone for - for the sake of your own safety, in-case you tried to look for her, and found her in such a...terrifying and rather bloodthirsty state.

It was painful. It was so, so painful to be without you for days, sometimes even for weeks. To not feel your arms wrapped around her in a comforting embrace, to not see your beatiful eyes looking right at her, to not see your lips curved up in a joyful smile. Aeons, she couldn't express the pain in her heart right now. It's agonizing.

"Moon..oh, my moon.. i'm sorry.." - she whispers to herself, cursing herself in her head for leaving you yet again, while looking up at the night sky before her, tears slowly leaking from under her blindfold. She clenches her fists, trying her best to contain her emotions, but to no avail. Then, another wave of memories flash in her mind, causing her to let out a low hiss and place her hands on her blindfold.

...

Later, the next day, in the early morning, while you were still in bed, you hear someone enter the house. Confused, you sit up on the bed and rub your eyes, before sliding off the bed and slowly making your way out the bedroom, only to find Jingliu standing in the hallway, a cold expression on her face. A smile creeps up your face, as you run up to her and wrap your arms around her in a comforting embrace.

Jingliu's cold exterior quickly crumbles, as tears well up in her eyes underneath her blindfold, breaking down in your embrace, her muscles relaxing at the feeling of her body against yours. She sobs as she leans into the hug, whispering something.

"I'm sorry.." - she whispers in-between sobs.