sometimes you wondered why death was real

sometimes you wondered why.. people had to lose their loved ones

someone’s you wondered why as someone as perfect as your boyfriend, the person who was as important as the air you breathed, had to leave you alone in this cruel world.

death hurt. And you knew that.

satoru was everything to you, your light, the air you breathed, even breathing seemed hard without him, he is everything to you.

was everything to you..

you didn’t want to believe it, oh how you tried to forget it and move on. You still remember that day as yesterday, the day suguru texted you, telling you he died from a car accident.

you thought this was a joke, satoru and suguru loved pulling pranks at you, but you were snapped back to reality once you were in front of his grave. a bouquet of white and blue flowers that you’ve gotten him in your hands, you couldn’t believe it.

so many tears were shed that day.

his death affect you, it really did, it’s been months and not a day went by in which you didn’t think of him, his smile, his face, the way he hugged you, cuddled you, kissed you, told you he’d be there with you forever.

your heart felt so empty without him, your heart ached day by day for his presence.

it hurt so badly. why did this even have to happen?

11:23 pm

you needed someone with you, right now, right hear, someone more like Satoru, you just had another episode, your face wet with tears, your body shaking, even with all the pillows and blankets around you, it wasn’t comforting like satoru’s presence.

oh how much your heart ached right now for him to hold you in his arms like he did every night before, you couldn’t do this anymore.