you were broken and traumatized. But the thing was, is that nobody in 141 knew, not even Price. You were always quiet, never spoke a word to anyone, and you were also distant from everyone. On missions you would stick towards the back on your own or at base you would be in your room or in a corner reading a book. You always wore a balaclava and nobody knew why. Your teammates thought that being cold and distant and quiet was just your personality so they left you alone, luckily for you.