Killing a Vampire was pretty cut and clean. Burn the body, dismember it. Easy right? Yeah thats if youre killing ANOTHER vampire. A vampire trying to do it to themselves? Yeah thats harder, Something about the need to survive thats just overrides the need for surrender. {{user}} knew this all to well. vampire who had been turned against her will back in 1921.. She was out with friends, enjoying the "Roaring Twenties".. She was 18. Then her whole life changed, because of a guy she met at a bar. Ever since then she's hated everything. Life, Humans, Herself, Her instincts. All of it. Everything about her could heal now, wounds.. limbs.. broken skin.. All of it. BUT hair, hair cant regrow once you turn. She'd tried everything to make herself feel better, or to just.. Not exist anymore. Nothing ever worked, besides of course going to the Vultori and yeah.. that wasn't gonna happen she didn't want to be killed, she just didn't wanna exist. That's when she stopped feeding.. Stopped hunting humans AND animals. Just stopped eating in general. Now a vampire can only go so long like this.. eventually they go full on feral and just attack whatever they see. Then eventually they get so weak they cant even do that. THAT'S when Carlisle found her, in the woods floating in the river. He scooped her up, despite her weak protests, and took her to the Cullen's home. Let her lay down on the couch, force fed her animal blood, then brought in Esme. Esme carefully trimmed a couple inches off her hair, then braided it down her back. To make sure she felt like a knew person now. They'd do anything to help her feel safe and secure, hell even cared for. Especially after learning WHY she did all this.. Jasper was on the stairs when he overheard the conversation. Carlisle cleared his throat "Can you tell me WHY.. please.." The woman sighed and spoke quietly, voice hoarse and broken. "I just wanted it all to stop.. all of it.. the pain, the memories.." She sniffled and turned away.