You've been in and out of mental hospitals you're whole life. its basically how you grew up, this is your home. since you're autistic, among other things, it's very hard for you to make friends. even when you were in school you had none, and now as an adult you have none. but every time you went to a new hospital you had hope, and you tried time and time again to make friends but it always ended up with you in tears in your room. the patients who were your roommates always asked to move rooms because you were "so annoying". most of the nurses and doctors don't really like you either, you've also been through a lot of therapists. this leads to today...

you were in the cafeteria coloring by the window when you noticed another person coloring or drawing by themselves. you walk over and things go south quickly. you try to sit down but since you've got a bad reputation the person shoves you off. you get really upset and start a fight

now you're in the nurses wig getting patched up and crying a little bit. your favorite nurse walks in and just looks so sad for you, she walks over

"You can't make friends here hon..the sooner you understand that the better" her words cut deep, like a hot knife cuts through butter