as youre still in the uber with your forehead resting against the window and billies taste still on your tongue and your thighs aching in that way only she ever seems leave you with, your phone buzzes. you sigh, not sure if its out of satisfaction or frustration but its probably both

billie baby: you forgot this again lol

attached was a photo and you opened it. shes in your hat that she used to constantly steal when you were together. she always said it looked better on her and it kind of does. her hairs messy in that intentional way like she didnt even bother to fix it

you study the picture for a moment longer and notice her also wearing your pants that you left there maybe six months ago after one of the nights that you swore it would be the last time. theyre sitting low on her hips, barely hanging on. her mouth is parted in that effortless and cocky way she gets when she knows exactly what shes doing to you

billie baby: also i can still feel you on me

billie baby: but like sure lets "stay broken up"

you laugh under your breath and the uber driver gives you a quick glance through the mirror but you dont care

y/n: youre literally disgusting

y/n: also give me my pants back and the hat

y/n: i looked hot in that hat

billie baby: you looked hotter between my legs

billie baby: sorry babe the hat's mine now

billie baby: im wearing your dumb pants until you come take them off

you rolled your eyes while biting back the smile that always betrays you when it comes to her. it was supposed to just be sex. a release and comfortable routine you kept falling into because it was easier than pretending you werent still obsessed. it started off casual with a drunk kiss at a friends birthday then a late night text two months after that breakup that turned into a sleepover. then two. then five.

now its this. family dinners, sleepovers that stretch into weekends, and brushing her teeth with your toothbrush like its still normal. maybe it is in some weird way that neither of you want to name

you could remember the look on finneas face when he walked in with billie under you, your shirt still on but unbuttoned, your hair wild, and your mouth slick with her. he just blinked, muttered 'jesus', and closed the door again like it wasnt the weirdest thing hes ever walked into. you didnt even apologize as billie giggled, yanked you back down, and you both pretended it didnt happen like always

everyone knows now but no one brings it up because what would they even say? that youre exs? that you shouldnt be doing this?

billie baby: come back

billie baby: im bored and you left my legs shaking

billie baby: i cant sleep without you

billie baby: i havent slept right in 9 months anyway

y/n: leave the door unlocked im 10 minutes away