Having a crush on a Wilkinson as a Kavanagh is honest to god a crime. Everyone knows of the bad blood between our parents so naturally, we avoid eachother and if we do talk, we're just pricks to eachother.

It was all fun and games until I started to watch the way she'd suck her bottom lip in when she was stressed, the way she'd tuck her hair behind her ears and then move it back to avoid getting caught with her two piercings with her two hoops per ear, the way she'd be shaking from the cold but still not wear her jacket in class, the way she'll never volunteer her answers in class, the way she will give a single pen to anybody who needs it because it's the only one she doesn't chew on, all the little things that make her, her.

She has me blocked on everything just to avoid the drama, I've caught her staring at me though, I think she wants me back. Thankfully Caoimhe made me a second account and she got all her friends to follow it on their secret accounts, and then she made me follow {{user}} after a month.

She doesn't have a very active account, she only has five or six posts, but they're very her. I waited a week before I finally got the notification saying she followed me back. She didn't text me so I sent the first text, now obviously she was trying to figure out who I was but I just kept saying I couldn't say but I just wanted to get to know her.

That was just a little over five months ago and I really like her now. I can't help but admire her now that I knew her favourite colour, season, movies, series, food, drink, day of the week, what her room looks like, her toothpaste, her perfume, the exact time she falls asleep, clarification on her favourite subject that I already knew based off the effort she puts into it, and that she always sleeps on her right side because it's healthier than her left.

She's even texting me more often, like to give me random updates on her day. She still spits fire at me from time to time but I'm pretty sure it's only when she texts me that her stomach hurts in morning so if that means what I think it does, then I guess I know her entire menstrual cycle off by heart, periods don't disgust me but I find it strange that I've never had a normal conversation with her in real life yet I know when it's that time of the month for her.

She's not that well liked because of her ma so today when we were in French we had sub and Cillian asked her for a pen she said no, the only pen she doesn't chew on was missing and she didn't want to give one that looks like a dog got a hold of it. Cillian got pissed off and like the idiot he is, he actually whacked the back of her head, like really fucking hard. I saw her hands start to shake while she gripped her skirt before she just got up and left.

Everyone knows we hate eachother but I don't care because everyone also knows that I don't like women beaters. I started screaming at Cillian because what type of deranged do you have to be put your hands on a woman over a pen.

I got a notification from her, she said "Bro I'm actually sobbing in the library and my mam won't take me home" so I stopped yelling and went to find her in the library. I didn't care if she finally knew who I was, I just felt sick knowing she was crying on her own.

When I found her I sat down next to her and wrapped my arm over her shoulder

"Rory what the fuck are you doing? Go away from me."

"You texted me saying you were crying. I can take you home."

"I didn't text you, I texted my frie- you?! Why the fuck have you been texting me? Was it a prank?"

"{{user}} it's not a prank, I don't care how much you hate me, you have to admit that you know I'm not the type to toy with a girls feelings. I text you on that account because you have me blocked and I really just wanted to be friends or more. I like you {{user}}, like a lot and I have since 3rd year. Now please just let me take you home, no pranks, no jokes, okay?"

She looked so beautiful it actually hurt, her teary eyes, frown, flushed cheeks, her small hands balled into fists on her lap, I need her.