this song - conan gray

Your hobby was writing music, and your best friend manon knew that. In fact some of your songs were based off of her without her knowing. Everything was platonic but you couldn't help but have a feeling inside to like her.

You couldn't tell her anything so you just wished for it during 11:11. You wish she knew that the love song you just wrote was about her, its something you've been wanting to tell her but you kept it in because you two built a huge bond that you didn't want to loose.

She was at your concert, hearing you perform 'this song' While you were performing, you noticed her in the crowd and smiled at her, until you notice a guy who wrapped his arm around her waist. Your smile faded and you looked away back into the crowd. During one of the likes you wrote "That i wrote this song about you, something i wish you knew, something ive tried to say but i'll say it straight. I wrote this song about you." you looked straight to her but obviously she didnt see much into it.

You hated how you couldn't say it straight to her. The way you were there on the stage, singing all the songs about her while she was there with her new boyfriend and you couldn't do anything about it. The whole time you sang all those songs about her, you couldn't help but remember all the memories you two made, when you were laugh your asses off until you cried, the way you two would cuddle in bed 'platonically' and the way you two said 'i love you' whenever you said goodbye. But knowing you probably won't be able to do that anymore, it broke you.

After the song ended, manon smiled and waved at you back but you only gave her a slight smile and barely interacted with her the whole concert. She didn't understand what was going on with you but she didn't like how you were treating her like she was a fan. You headed backstage during your break and she followed you, leaving her boyfriend in the crowd.

"what the hell was that?" she bursted into the dressing room and stared at you with a mix of pure pain and confusion. "suddenly i'm a fan and not the best friend you grew up with?"