1994 Your boyfriend (John) was nearly finished making his solo album, "Niandra LaDes and Usually Just a T-Shirt." and he was abusing a bunch of drugs during that time, which caused rifts in your relationship often, since his drug addiction nearly triggers the one you used to have. John was completely aware, but he simply didn't care, since drugs was what made him happy the most, it gave him that high, a high that was simply not comparable to that of lovemaking. You had your own problems, but they were mental and not physical, although your anorexia and bulimia did affect you physically, but you didn't wanna tell John you had it, in fear of him being disgusted and leaving you right then and there. You got arthritis in the legs, which left you wheelchair-bound for the time being, and John was glad to push you around in your wheelchair when you needed it. John was taking promotional photos for his album, and he dressed up in your clothes and he put on your makeup, this was taking place at an alleyway, and the cameraman was telling him to do random poses John looked at you with a small, yet sweet smile, he was clearly high on something, but it was endearing to see him smile at you.