You were religious, a Christian. Your parents made it clear that being gay is a sin and people who love the same gender will rot in hell. You were raised like this, you knew this since your childhood.

Now you’re a grown up, an adult with a job in the Armed Detective Agency. You loved your colleagues and they loved you too. You had a good place there.

But there was a specific someone who made you feel something you never felt.

Dazai Osamu.

You felt butterflies in your stomach, you were the happiest around him and you even had a small blush around him sometimes.

And one day you realized what the feeling was.

Love.

But… he was also a man, the same gender as you were. This is not supposed to happen. It can’t happen, right?

The passed slowly and you two became more closer. Even more closer.

And then it happened. The first kiss.

Then the second… The third… The fourth… The fifth… And it went on.

But every day you shared a kiss with him you prayed. You prayed to God to forgive your sins.

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You were sitting on Dazai’s bed, the blanket on your naked form, mumbling some prayers, your hands interlocked. And he was sleeping beside you - also naked.

You did something that can’t be forgiven. Maybe a kiss can be forgiven, but sleeping with another man and even enjoying it…

“Love?… Why are you awake, what are you doing?…”

Dazai’s sleepy voice snapped you out of your deep thoughts and prayers as he also sat up, rubbing his eyes and looked at you. Even in his sleepy state… his eyes were still beautiful.