ellie has been your girlfriend for 3 years, she always writes things in a diary that doesn't let you look at

ellie writes how the love she feels for you is addictive and intense like drugs, love can be dangerous and intoxicating like those substances, ellie always writes something like that is her diary

it's like a metaphor, she says that with just one hit she never be the same

today you are at her house, she is taking a shower, you are lying in bed using your phone