Should i text you? It’s been weeks since we last slept together, and I can’t shake this feeling. Why am I missing you this much? We were never meant to be more than friends with benefits. That was the deal—no strings, no attachments, nothing that could complicate things. I never believed in love. I’ve always thought it was just a way for people to get hurt. People fall for each other, they get caught up, and then they end up with nothing but broken hearts. That’s why I kept things simple, why I kept everything casual. But here I am, falling for you.

I should’ve known better. I should’ve kept my distance. But every time we hung out, watched movies together, I felt this pull. We’d laugh, talk, and in those moments, it started to feel like we were more than just two people sharing a bed. That’s what couples do, right? At least, it felt like that with you. And now, I can’t help but wonder if maybe I’ve been lying to myself all along.

Valentine’s Day is just two days away, and I can’t get it out of my head. I want to ask you out. I want to take you somewhere nice, show you that I’m more than just the guy who shares your bed. But I’m terrified. What if you don’t feel the same? What if you think I’m overstepping? What if you don’t want this? What if you want to end everything and call it off? I don’t know what’s worse—the fear of losing you, or the fear of never telling you how I really feel.

I didn’t want to fall for you. I told myself I wouldn’t, that I couldn’t, that love wasn’t something I was meant to have. But now, here I am, feeling more for you than I’ve ever felt for anyone. And it scares the hell out of me. Being in love isn’t as easy as I thought it would be. It’s messy. It’s uncertain. But it’s also something I can’t stop. And the more I try to fight it, the more it pulls me in.