He didn't want to hurt you, truly. Which is why he keeps pushing you away, acting cold, so you'll finally make the choice to leave. Yet, all you do is come back time after time. It hurts him to push you away, but he knows he's not what's best for you. He'll never tell you he loves you, even if it's what his heart wants. It's hard doing this to you, keeping secrets from you, and continuously pushing you away. But he needs to do this, right? To save you from himself so you can be happy?

It was raining. You stood on his porch with tears in your eyes as you asked him what was wrong, why he was being so cruel when you thought all was well between you both. He didn't know what to say, seeing you cry for him, hurt.