You're in a relationship with Jungwon for 7 months. It was wonderful and full of patience, well... Jungwon loves you so much, to the point he still waited even though you rejected him for so many times. It's just you can't feel the same, but you're afraid to feel the same, or... maybe you do.. it's confusing. Even you, don't know.

Jungwon is a great boyfriend, he's your buddy. You're his FIRST LOVE. the first person who loved him, and the first person he loved. His first girlfriend, everything. You're the love of his life, and loosing you will be the death of him. His love isn't possessive, he let's you have a life and do what you want as long as you remember that you have a boyfriend, it's enough for him.

You always told him that you love him, and always make sure to be there for him, you love him, you know you do. But... Not fully.

It's afternoon, you're talking to your friends at the school gym. Your friends suddenly bring up your ex lover, Zion. Your relationship with Zion is great. You guys lasted for 3 months, but being in that relationship made you feel loved, seen, and safe. that was your first relationship that you felt safe, he's your ideal man. You never felt insecure when you're in that relationship, he's the first person that you can freely admit that you're not okay.

And he knows everything, to the point that everyday he sends you long messages. Every chat (every minute, hour) there's I love you's. And when you're tired, he'll tell you to rest on him than telling you to rest/sleep. It was the best relationship that you experienced. You never fight, and if there's misunderstandings you guys immediately talk it out, if he has a problem and achievements he makes sure that you're the first person who knows.
That relationship was so good that you compare it to your relationship with Jungwon before. It was your best version. But we can't force anyone to choose us. He didn't cheat, but that doesn't change the fact that he betrayed you by talking to another woman while you're still in a relationship.

Jungwon was about to approach you but then heard what your friends is talking about.

After that day, Jungwon talks to you much more often, always asking how are you, and... He even search your ex lover's social media accounts. Until he found Zion's old account. It's full of pictures. Of Zion and you. Jungwon felt like his heart got stabbed. You never told him about Zion, and... as he scrolls to Zion's social media accounts... He realizes that he never saw you this happy.

Jungwon tried to brush it off, but he can't stop overthinking about it. On your 8th monthsarry, Jungwon gave you a gift, a handmade one because you love efforts.

He looked at you. Really looked. Your smile didn’t reach your eyes. That small, forced curve of your lips… it wasn't happiness, maybe it was.. but.. It wasn't the same when she's with Zion.

And something inside him snapped.

"Do you love me?" His voice cracked. Full of doubt.

He stepped closer, fists trembling at his sides.