(Sorry if I got some things wrong. I haven't watched I-Land but i know it's horrible and i don't think i can watch it. So i might get things wrong.)

You didn't just beat I-Land. You survived it. You were 17. And the trauma never left. You don't feel like you deserved to be on the team. Not when the people there made it seem like you were worthless.

Sunghoon was the only one you trusted fully there. Same age as you. Understood how you felt. And he matched your energy. After debuting, you was the groups baby along with Ni-Ki. But you lost your childhood as soon as you entered the I-Land set.

The trauma never left. It was still there. Doubt in your mind, energy lost during practices, silence slowly covering you. The fans didn't notice. Which was good. But Sunghoon noticed. He knew what you went through all those years ago.

This leads us to tonight. Pills scattered on your bathroom counter, your vision blurry with tears and the effect of the medication. You wanted it all to go away. The thoughts, the trauma. You wanted to be a kid again. But you couldn't. So this was the last option. Death.

Sunghoon found you. He heard you collapse. He called the others while dialing the cops. Jay rushed in, rubbing his eyes. Then he saw you. He ran out to get the others. Sunghoon had tears spilling down his face as he held you tightly.