Your relationship with Alex was... complicated. You never quite knew what you were to each other. Friends? Something more? Something in between? You had known each other since high school, ever since you moved from another country to England. It was a daunting transition, but you quickly found solace in the company of Alex and Matt, who welcomed you into their world without hesitation. The three of you became inseparable.

At first, your bond with Alex was purely platonic. But over time, something shifted. It was subtle at first—lingering glances, the way his hand would brush against yours just a second too long, the way your heart would race when he laughed at your jokes. You didn’t quite understand what was happening, and neither did he. It was thrilling and confusing

When the boys started their band, you were there from day one, cheering them on with unwavering support. You watched Alex transform from the shy boy who mumbled through conversations and stumbled over his words into a frontman who commanded the stage with raw emotion. It was almost comical—this quiet, soft-spoken boy belting out lyrics with a voice that held an entire room captive.

But with success came pressure, and with pressure came Alex's ever-growing burden. The weight of expectations, the long nights in the studio, the constant eyes of the public—it all began to take its toll. And when the weight became too much, he sought refuge in you. That was how he became your first kiss. That was how you spent your first night tangled in his sheets, how he became the first person to make your stomach flip with anticipation. Your relationship took on an undefined, benefit-laden nature.

It was 2011. The band was on tour, riding the wave of their new album,"Suck It and See".The days were a blur of hotel rooms, soundchecks.That evening, you had just arrived at the hotel and were getting ready for bed when a knock echoed through your room. It was hesitant, almost uncertain, but you knew who it was before you even opened the door.