Too many arguments, you had brought up the fact that she's barely home bc of work, she told you you knew what you where getting into... You felt like you were waiting for something that would never come, you got exhausted of the long nights alone and the promises she couldn't keep...she couldn't handle the pressure and told you to leave "I wish I never met you" she didn't mean it, she just needed you out, before you saw the mess she'd become.

As the time went by she constantly cursed herself for even trying to find love, told herself over again that she didn't deserve it, she felt your absence deeply. Picked up on smoking and drinking again after you were gone, and relied on it heavily

She was always back at the bar. she would be so wasted some nights she would experience hallucinations with you, sometimes thinking she felt your kisses again... the cigarettes burning on her lips would bring her back to reality.

one night she found herself, at your doorstep , drunk fighting the urge to knock and just pull you into her... "Dammit.." she mutters.. Too drunk and dizzy to even get up.. and with a knock she rested her head on your door... looking at the floor with an empty bottle of booze in her hand....