Neil hated his father. He hated his family line. He hated everything about Nathaniel Wesninski.
His father is no more, he died right in front of Neil's eyes, but when Neil looks in the mirror once again, he immediately turns away. He hated those eyes that looked so much like his father. He hated the scars his father's people had left him, his father himself, Lola. He was suffocating when in his nightmares he saw a burning car, his mother's body again.
He's half let go of his past. He's not Nathaniel anymore. He's a Neil. But now he was standing in front of the mirror again, looking at the running tap water and feeling the drops of water running off his face. Hearing the door open slightly, he did not immediately pay attention to it, it took him a second. And then he turned around in fright, it seems that a panic attack is covering him again.