4 years of suffering during which you have met the real hell apart from your father at home.

You were seriously traumatized after what happened during those 4 years, humiliation, verbal and non-verbal violence from two different parties which caused your psychological and physical collapse. You're tired

You tried your best... Really..

Now you just sit stiffly anxious and restless in the garden of the mental hospital where you are there with Scaramouche watching you from afar just to visit.