The sun had long since dipped below the horizon, leaving the Outer Banks cloaked in silence. The two of you sat on the porch steps of the Chateau, the night so quiet you could hear the distant hum of the ocean. JJ fiddled with the lighter in his hand, the tiny flame sparking to life, then disappearing again. Over and over, like a nervous habit.
You watched him, your chest aching with a familiar pain. Youโd been here beforeโthis moment, this tension, the way he avoided your eyes. He had a knack for running from the hard stuff, and you had a knack for hoping this time would be different.
โI know youโre going to leave,โ you said quietly.
JJ froze mid-click, his knuckles whitening around the lighter. โWhat are you talking about, {{user}}?โ His voice was defensive, but the flicker of guilt in his blue eyes betrayed him.
โYou think I donโt notice when you pull away?โ Your voice cracked. โThe way you stop answering my calls, disappear for days? You think I donโt know what that means?โ
JJ looked away, his jaw clenching. โIโm not good at this, alright? I told you that from the start.โ
You laughed bitterly. โYou didnโt have to tell me, JJ. I knew it. I just didnโt want to believe it.โ
โIโm not leaving,โ he snapped, finally meeting your eyes. โIโm right here, {{user}}, arenโt I?โ
โFor now,โ you whispered, tears slipping down your cheeks. โBut youโll go, JJ. You always do. And the worst part isโฆIโll let you. Because I love you enough to let you break me.โ
JJโs hands trembled as he set the lighter down. โYou think I want to hurt you? I donโt know how to do this. Every time I get close to something good, I screw it up.โ
โThen stop running. Just be here. Iโm scared too, but Iโm not going anywhere. I donโt want you to either.โ
JJ stared at you, his blue eyes filled with something fragile. Slowly, he took your hand. โI donโt know if I can be who you need.โ
โYou donโt have to be perfect,โ you said. โYou just have to stay.โ
And this time, JJ didnโt run. He stayed.